me being my exquisite self

all i wanted all i needed was to trust you and feel safe with you your words were sweet then rough your kisses, once tender they'd suddenly turn into a fight a slave for your intentions what you liked what you wanted you made me happy until i was not happy anymore things went downhill when you started to control me that doesn't work with me see my value, see me as i am crazy, spontaneous free, in love

i was looking for nothing no expecations at all but i felt the beat i felt the heat my eyes found yours your hands on my hips delectable picture the smell, the lips the warmth i'm all about feeling don't do harm to me my heart's not ready but i really wanna try don't let me down cause imma give you my best

i feel so heavy so worn out so drained left out i don't feel like myself i feel lonely dirty and unsafe my hands have bad desires my head spins & spins my lips pout my eyes shine there come my tears they just won't dry they just won't stop

he broke me  into a million pieces but i picked each one  from the floor i carefully put them  back together and walked out the door finally, for good

how is it possible that having everything you feel like all you have is nothing but tears

expecting too much when giving is a mistake  so, i stopped i did not stop giving, though giving is loving and caring i stopped expecting anything back expecting is just too painful

time went so fast it's not fair i fell for you you fell for me i never thought  i would find someone like you and now, you're gone i remember your laughter your hugs i miss your kisses i ache for your touch what a special human being how special i felt with you how at home you made me feel  safe  and  loved  food, booze kisses & crazy singular, unique you're precious, baby

aún no entiendo fuiste alegría fuiste profundo dolor fuiste realmente el centro de mis días por qué me castigaste? por qué me humillaste? tus disculpas no bastaron mi mente solo repetía "te denigraron" el sonido del moledor 'i love you, baby' estabas junto a mí, pero no conmigo 'i need you, baby' me buscaste me perseguiste mas ya no era tiempo ni te dije adiós antes de irme

BLEEDING is not an option not anymore my words on this page are my blood at its purest my release

my swollen eyes plead no more my mind keeps firing stabbing my feelings

my eyes can't see now but hopefully  they will can't see through the tears can't wipe them away rivers and rivers dripping down my cheeks i'm drowning in a wave of soothing melodies i just close my eyes it's raining in my heart

his eyes of judgment her eyes full of pity how can i rise when all i apparently am able to do is drown